I can recognize how poisoning and blinding is this fake sense of superiority that cames with conscious development. I feel somehow superior, and this is pushing me away from everyone else with every judgment my mind create towards others.
I think this can be understood as a natural aspect of my personality, and this search for spiritual enlightenment is just another way of feeding my ego and its need for differentiation.
But can I justify as an egoistic reason?
I feel I don’t share the same intentions,ambitions, valeus, understanding, anything. Either I get distant from them, or I go back being them again. Me plasmar na massa que demorei tanto pra me desvincular, cada parte do meu pensamento, reação e vontade. O que eu sou agora não cabe em lugar nenhum.